How’s mom? Mom doesn’t eat much and she rests a lot and doesn’t have much energy.  Sometimes she says ridiculous things like she said “goo” instead of “honey” when replying to one of my texts.  So now to make us laugh she will respond “ok goo” or “love you goo”.  We have a schedule going and work like the best dysfunctional functional machine.  Whoever stays with her has the responsibility of responding to the barrage of text messages from the other 3 of us stuck at work that day.  Needing to know How she is? Has she eaten? Is she resting? Is she in any pain?

We are all scared and watching her like this is heartbreaking.  I know she’s dying but idea of walking into that house one day and not seeing her sitting on the couch is unfathomable.

People are good and kind.  We have been shown so much love via flowers, texts, cards, food and occasional visitors when mom feels up to it. Saturday we had a visit with a couple of our childhood friends, more than friends, more like sisters.  I mean they’ve known mom almost as long as we have.  They stopped by and it was good and it was sad.  We watched embarrassing childhood videos and laughed at ourselves and mom laughed at us too.  And for a moment we were taken back to a simpler time where our biggest problem was what choreography we were going to attempt.  Mine was a lot of arm waving.  I have zero coordination.

I feel like a zombie and I’m sad and scared but I also have a deep appreciation for the friends and family that have been lifting us up and love us and love mom.

So thank you.  Thank you to every single one of you.  This all sucks but your love and support makes it suck a bit less.