Today was an appointment that no one with cancer really wants to have. The appointment where you are ending treatment but not in the fun you are in remission way but in the nothing is working and we have nothing left to try way. Mom’s CA125 is well above 10,000 which means the chemo she was on did not work. She isn’t eligible for any clinical trials because of her resistance to certain classes of chemo drugs, her PARP resistance and the location of the cancer. Also we got the results back and she isn’t a candidate for immunotherapy.
He told us that once she became platinum resistant there really wasn’t anything they could do to extend her number of days. And by giving her treatment that isn’t working they were just taking away her good days if she’s stuck on the couch due to side effects. He told her to plan some vacations and to live her life.
We then went up to get her port flushed and our favorite chemo nurse was there. She gave mom her very first treatment and incidentally also gave her her last treatment. It was emotional to say the least. She gave us hugs and we were able to thank her. Over the past 3 and a half years she listened to our stories, answered our questions and laughed at our jokes. She was our chemo angel and I will forever be grateful for her.
The next step will be for us to meet with a palliative care team and they will help guide us through these next steps. Our hearts are broken but we are determined to make the most of our time together just as we have over the past 3 and a half years.
As always thank you to every one of you. Your prayers and kind words have meant more than you can know.