End of Treatment

Today was an appointment that no one with cancer really wants to have. The appointment where you are ending treatment but not in the fun you are in remission way but in the nothing is working and we have nothing left to try way. Mom’s CA125 is well above 10,000 which means the chemo she was on did not work. She isn’t eligible for any clinical trials because of her resistance to certain classes of chemo drugs, her PARP resistance and the location of the cancer. Also we got the results back and she isn’t a candidate for immunotherapy.

He told us that once she became platinum resistant there really wasn’t anything they could do to extend her number of days. And by giving her treatment that isn’t working they were just taking away her good days if she’s stuck on the couch due to side effects. He told her to plan some vacations and to live her life.

We then went up to get her port flushed and our favorite chemo nurse was there. She gave mom her very first treatment and incidentally also gave her her last treatment. It was emotional to say the least. She gave us hugs and we were able to thank her. Over the past 3 and a half years she listened to our stories, answered our questions and laughed at our jokes. She was our chemo angel and I will forever be grateful for her.

The next step will be for us to meet with a palliative care team and they will help guide us through these next steps. Our hearts are broken but we are determined to make the most of our time together just as we have over the past 3 and a half years.

As always thank you to every one of you. Your prayers and kind words have meant more than you can know.

19 thoughts on “End of Treatment

  1. Debbie Holy says:

    This was so difficult to read. And i understand how hard it is on all of you. i am still hoping and praying for you. For good days. For family days. For lots and lots of love. And for God to be merciful. I’m so sorry. Hugs

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  2. KIM REHMER says:

    We love you and are praying for your family. Cherish every moment together like you have the last three years. If there is anything we can do, just have your dad reach out to us. Pat and Kim Rehmer

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  3. Debbie Kendig says:

    I am overwhelmed with such sadness. My heart is hurting for all of you . I too pray for for fun days , comfortable days, family days , and many great adventures together for you . I have been soo blessed to share so many wonderful memories with you . You know we are here for you if you need anything . We love you !

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