I feel scared and overwhelmed. Tomorrow is surgery day and while am incredibly grateful she can have surgery it is scary. We didn’t prepare for this. We tried to prepare for a no but we didn’t think about the yes. And while the surgery has been scheduled for 10am tomorrow that is pretty much the only thing we know.
We don’t know how long it will take or how long she will be in the hospital because the surgeon doesn’t know. He can only tell so much from a CT scan and said he won’t know how extensive the surgery will be until he opens her up. Which isn’t super reassuring but my parents said he seemed positive when he spoke to them, which is good.
Today didn’t feel real. Today is my parents 31st wedding anniversary and they’re really staying true to that whole sick and health vow. They spent the day together bouncing around from pre op appointment to pre op appointment. My siblings and I sat in the waiting room when she met with her doctor to get the final word. A nurse told her we looked very nervous in the waiting room. We were. So I will just cling to my guardian of strength bracelet extra tight tonight as my mom goes into battle tomorrow.